My Birthday Song

I’m turning 22 in ten days and this whole month I have been having mixed thoughts about the whole idea. This year I wasn’t at all excited about my birthday which is weird for me. I found myself dreading the idea of it coming soon. I honestly didn’t know how much I was avoiding the topic or day until I realized how close it really was.

This month has just been crazy with work and trying to figure out a way to start paying off loans when they kick in on December. With everything that I’m dealing with my own birthday didn’t meet the importance factor. So I wanted to skip over it because it is just another day.

With all that going on I wanted to do some shadow work and figure out what is causing all this. What I found out is that I’m afraid of change. I’m afraid of getting another job or leaving my job. I’m afraid on trying to start my side business. I’m afraid of growing up and forgetting my inner child. But most importantly I’m afraid that change will bring nothing but failure. For months I have been struggling and now I know that I just have to embrace it. I have to remember to be fearless and welcome any change even if its out of my comfort zone.

So throughout the daily stresses and worries this song relaxes me. It makes me feel safe and comforted knowing that others share the same feelings towards change. I hope you enjoy this amazing song and that it brings you some love/ comfort.



2 thoughts on “My Birthday Song

  1. Brittany says:

    So crazy I’ve been feeling the same way. I don’t want it to come. Now you reminded me and its 9 days away now! I get caught up worrying about the future too and I have to remind myself to live one day at a time not try to think so much Into something I have no control over! Love you twin! And love this post!

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