Self-Reflecting weekend

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Last Friday I got some shocking news from my sister.

One of the girls I went to high school with was in a horrible car accident. She was driving on the 210 merging to the 15 freeway and was hit by a dump truck that didn’t see her. As it tapped her car, it cause it to start spinning and flipped several times before she was ejected from the car.

It was such a heart breaking story because this girl; Faith Hawkins was such a beautiful person. She was the rare person who was beautiful inside and out. I had the pleasure of getting to know her through a musical play we were both in. She had such an amazing singing voice that I always felt that she was going to go places. Never did I think that this would ever happen to her. After reading that story, it really proved to me that you have to be alert at all times. You can’t always think that everyone is being a safe driver because things can just go wrong in a blink of an eye.

All weekend I thought about her and how unfair it was that she had to be taken away like that.  Her story really spoke to me in many different ways. It made me vow that I would be very careful whenever I get behind the wheel. To become more passive and in-tuned with my surroundings. But what inspired me from all this was the kind of person she was. Faith never judged anyone, she never felt like she was better than anyone. Every where she went she brought this energy that was warm and energetic. Whenever you were with her, you could help but smile or feel so overjoyed. She has truly inspired me to be that person. Since she is no longer here to keep it going I want to make a promise to her that I will strive to be as loving and caring as she was. To spread love and positivity where ever I go.

Everyone will deeply miss her and I send nothing but prayers to her family. I hope they find peace in these moments of sorrow.

 

 

The Power of Now chapter 1

Have you ever re-read a book and found a hidden message you overlooked.

Well as I was re-reading chapter one in this book I got so many messages. I thought to myself how did I not see this before? It is pretty simple, I wasn’t ready to see what answers lied in front of me.

So as I kept reading on I knew that this was the answer I was looking for. With each page I read I felt the need to go back and highlight passages that spoke to me.

Let us begin….

You are NOT you Mind.

The first thing the book talks about is how to separate you and your ego.

Ego is described by the author as, “false self, created by unconscious identification with the mind”. If you are like me, you over think and it can be extremely toxic. You create thoughts and problems that were never there. The book describes it as creating a false reality.

The longer you take to break that connection the harder it will be to identify you and your ego. The chapter ends with an exercise on how to observe yourself and how to learn to ignore egos thoughts.

After reading the first chapter I was drawn in and I couldn’t help continue reading. So next week I’ll post about the other chapter’s I have read.

Happy Hump Day!

 

This Weeks Lesson

Happy Friday!

I so happy that the end of this week finally came. I have been so stressed out trying to make sure I am on top of celebrating everyone’s birthday. This week and next week I have friends and family that have birthday’s back to back to each other.

This week it was my Dad’s birthday (2nd), Boyfriend’s (7th),  my friend Jesse (8th), my Mom (9th) and my bf Mom (10th). So that was pretty hectic! I’m so grateful that my Mom and boyfriend don’t mind sharing the same weekend.

With everyone sharing the same month it becomes overwhelming so this year I learned some new things. One being that it isn’t always about the amount of money you spend on someone but the amount of effort.

This year for my boyfriends birthday I decided to approach it with a different mentality. Since I love getting an amazing response from my gifts I always go big or go home. So as I was on Best Buy’s website, I was browsing their gaming section to see what new toy I can get him. Once I looked through all the pages of products I found myself seeing nothing that he would love. I was rattling my brain on what would be a great gift. Then it hit me, I wanted to give him multiple surprises. I wanted to surprise him in the morning, while he was at work and when he came home.

For his Morning surprise I put a note on the mirror that said Good Morning and to go to the kitchen for his surprise. In the kitchen I taped a sign that said surprise inside with a balloon to the fridge. Inside the fridge I made him a lunch from scratch with some fruit and beef jerky I got from Whole Foods. Right in front of his bagged lunch was a handmade card. I jotted down some things that I love about him and how much he means to me. My whole goal was to make sure that he started his day off right.

When I got to work I wanted to create a nice photo collage of him and all the photos we have together. So I wrote a sweet note and posted it on Facebook. He loved it so much and people were complementing me on how nice it looked.

Here is where the headache really started. So my plan was when I get home I have two hours to bake a cake and decorate while I’m waiting.

What I didn’t know was that baking a cake with coconut flour gets pretty tricky especially if you have never worked with it. I decided to be bold and make him a sugar- free, low carb cake. So as I was mixing all the ingredients together I started noticing that it was pretty thick and hard to stir. Before I started panicking I kept adding water and even skim milk  to the mixture to see if it changed. Well sadly it didn’t but I was running out of time and I said, ” F*** it I’m just going to put it in the oven.”

One task was taken care of, so now I had to tackle decorating. I had this idea for his last surprise to tape a note outside the door to go to the kitchen, that a surprise is waiting for him. I was going to make a balloon avalanche so when he open the kitchen door balloons were just going to fall on him. I was going to be inside waiting with a cake with candles and sing him happy birthday.

But of course things didn’t go as I imagined so I just had to adapt. I hung the streamers and began to blow up the balloons. Just to do a time check I text my bf to let me know when he is almost home and what did he respond with… 10 mins away. So the idea of an avalanche was thrown out the window.

I ended up placing the balloons on the floor, bed, couch and on his desk area. I took the cake out and started putting in the candles because clearly there wasn’t any time to wait for it to cool. So as he walked in and was surprised by the decoration I started to sing to him.

For his gift I got him a Pacific candle and massage oil from Whole Foods. He absolutely loved it and I was beyond relieved. I told him of my ideas of getting him something expensive and he said that I chose the perfect gift. After he opened his gift we went to Gen (Korean BBQ restaurant) and we had a feast since it was all you can eat.

At the end of the day everything fell into place and made it one for the books. It taught me not to get so invested in an idea because some times things don’t go as planned. Another thing it taught me is that the gift means more when it comes from a place of love instead of money. I think that’s why I fell in love with my bf because material things don’t mean anything to him he prefers love.

 

P.s. The cake I made was okay, I had some left over batter and the cupcakes saved the day. While the cake ended up in the trash. You live and you learn.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Someone’s Birthday is Today…

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Today is my boyfriends birthday, he is turning 31! Birthday’s are so much fun for me. I love shopping for the perfect gift and getting the opportunity to spoil someone.

So when it comes to this month I am surrounded by birthdays. Most of my family and friends all happen to be Virgos. Guess that just means that our signs just get along.

I was going to show you everything I did and plan on doing but since my boyfriend reads my blog I can’t really do that. What I will do is post everything after today.

I was just so overjoyed and excited that I had to share with you what I’m celebrating today.

 

Joe Rogan Book Club

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Have you ever listen to a Joe Rogan podcast?

When my bf introduced me to his podcast it was a lot for me to take in. He has a variety of guests that appear on his show. Some days its about history and others its about martial arts. Regardless of what the subject is you always leave with some knowledge.

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So when we take long drives, we listen to his podcast. Since listening to his podcast I have discovered many books that I wanted to read. One of them was inspired by the MMA fighter Justin “The Viking” Wren. He was a guest on the Joe Rogan Experience and talked about the his experience with the pygmy people.  It broke my heart to hear about their daily struggles and how it was all traced back to King Leopold. As they got more into the history of the pygmy people I found myself wanting to learn more. Justin Wren recommended reading, King Leopold’s Ghost by Adam Hochschild.

The other book that I wanted to read was The War of Art by Steven Pressfield. It is a perfect book for someone who is an artist. When I say artist I mean any one who is creative and loves to think outside the box. It is a very witty book and reminds me of that bold friend who is brutal honest. The purpose of the book is to help you become successful by breaking down these obstacles we put up. As I read the first page I felt like the book was written just for me, like it was giving me direct advice.

The other book that I have been reading is The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.  I would say it is very similar to The War of Art, except I would say it is more spiritual. Many people who have read this book have told me that it was a life changing book.

Normally I finish one book before starting another one. But since my bf surprised me with the other two J.R. books I couldn’t say no. Now I am beyond excited to started these new books in September!

P.s. The Day Designer is a new planner I bought at Target. I have been obsessed with it and felt like I had to included it in my September books.

 

Happy Birthday Modern Meow!

 

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Today marks the first day I started my blog. I remember being afraid that no one was going to read it or that I wouldn’t receive any followers. But yesterday I got my 50th follower!

I am really proud of how much my blog has grown since I first started. There is much more in store for this blog I can’t help but feel excited for what the second year brings.

I want to thank all my followers and readers for supporting me and my dream. It has been stressful and there were many time I just wanted to quit. But once I see a new follower, a comment, or just a like; it makes it all worth it.

As I enjoy my day of hard work I welcome you to enjoy a piece of cake on my behalf!

Happy Birthday Modern Meow! I promise this second year will be fabulous!

 

Love,

Erika Ochoa