Discovering yourself

The other day I read an article talking about understanding yourself. The article was about this women who is an introvert and how she embraced it. It was titled Inside The Introvert , I recommend you read it too.

Many people like myself want to be to outgoing but there are days where I just want to stay in and read a book. For the author she says that there has to be a balance when it comes to being introverted. You have to know when your mind and body need alone time and when they need to be social.

I related to her when she said, “I’m learning a lot about myself as I explore my personality, and it’s been helpful to recognize why I am the way I am.”

As I’m getting older I’m start to notice where things from my personality strain from. I find myself constantly working on myself and trying to do shadow work. So I ran across a personality quiz that explains what kind of 16 personalities you have.

To be honest I took the test two times. Since I’m being honest the first time I took the test I would answer some questions with the idea that I don’t view myself like that . But as I was getting ready to post this I thought let me take the test again and see what I get. I decided to answer it this time HONESTLY. There were some questions I was hesitant to agree with but here is what I got.

Here is what I got the first time.

It said that I was 57% Extraverted, 84% Intuitive, 70% Feelings over Logic, 61% Judging and 54% Assertive.

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Now the second time I got 58% Introverted, 79% Intuitive, 55% Feeling, 63% Judging, 74% Turbulent.

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After reading it I completely agreed with every single word.

There are a lot of reason of why I am the way that I am. But there are moments when I catch myself asking why do you do that Erika?!? As I read my profile I started to understand some current feelings that I have been feeling lately.

My Weaknesses:

Sensitive

I am extremely sensitive and I hate it when people come after my values and beliefs. The reason I get so upset is because I respect others values and beliefs. I don’t question them on it or make them feel like they are beneath me so I don’t expect to be treated that way either.

Extremely Private

It because of that reason that I don’t share anything personal. I am VERY selective when it comes to being open with someone because I don’t trust people that often.

Perfectionistic

Ever since I was little I have been a perfectionistic. It has been a trait that can be appeal on a resume but can also be used as self-sabotage. Always thinking that nothing is ever good enough.

Always Need to Have a Cause

When I went to FIDM I would always hear amazing stories from my professors of the jobs they had and how passionate they were about them. It pushed me to look for jobs that represent something. I need goals and I need to feel like I’m making a difference because if not I feel restless and disappointed.

As I read more I found myself answering all these questions I had. Whether it be about romantic relationships, friendships, career paths or workplace habits it got me to the T.

I am beyond happy that this quiz stumbled upon me because it answered everything I was questioning. I hope you take it yourself and discover some things you didn’t even know about yourself.

Feel free to share what kind of personality you got and whether you agree with it or not.

-Erika

 

 

Going Home

Sometimes when your life gets chaotic you just need to go home and hang out with your mom.

This weekend I went to go visit my mom, friends and family in the high desert. It been a year since I have gone home and it seems like a lot changed. There are new restaurant’s, grocery stores and schools that they recently built.

I wanted my trip home to be relaxing so I only planned to see my family. It has felt like years since I last seen them. So it was so nice catching up with them and having those moments when we are dying of laughter.

I also got to catch up with one of my old friends from middle school. She is one of the few friends that I decided to keep in contact with. The crazy part of it all is that we picked up right where we left off. We talked about what is going on with our lives and I caught her up with what our friends are up to now. My favorite part of our whole conversation was the old photos she brought of us. She showed me a photobooth photo strip that we had taken a long time ago.


I saw a photo of a young girl who was confident, happy and not afraid to be herself. As years went by that person was hidden away. The opinions of others made me want to reel that personality in. So I became quiet, shy and invisible so I would never stand out again. It that same reason why I hate people staring or looking at me.

After the weekend was over I was sad to leave. My home city is relaxed and so chill that time feels like its going by slow. When I’m in the living room watching my mom shows with her, my sister and our cats; it feels like I have never left. Saying goodbye to everyone was hard especially because I don’t know the next time I will see them. So I made two important goals that I want to work on and that is keeping contact with my family better. The second one is bring that person I hid away from people back. I want to radiate the confidence, happiness and personality my 12 year old self shared willingly with others. It won’t be easy and there will be a lot of walls that need to get knocked down in order for that to happen. But I’m willing to put in all the time and energy into it.

Erika